restless

will i forever be restless?
i cant seem to stop and be still
i always want something new ... something exciting to keep my adrenaline up
just when i thought that everything seems smooth and great ...
here i am again ... looking for that unexplainable something ....
meeeeen!!! ... these days, i ask myself, what would keep me still and ... ooooohhhh...
the word just slipped my mind 'CONTENTMENT' .. i think i will never be content with
whatever ... i will always be searching for more than just okay ... demn!
it can be tiring ... it can be annoying ... but ... but ... despite my being restless, i have to thank GOD, for all these years of my being restless and my always looking for that "unexplainable something", lifting up all these uncertainties to HIM and just letting HIM lead the way has always led me to the most BLESSED PATHS ...