on being restless

i have come to a realization ....
i will forever be restless until my last breath
because it is my constant search for something new, something different that keeps my life exciting ... it keeps me up on my toes, it keeps me updated with whatever i may care or not care about ... i need to feed my brain and my system with something new all the time to keep me going, to keep my mind going ... learning is a continuous process and it only stops when we stop breathing. i may at times feel tired of being a restless being, but if it's the key to keep me up, then so be it ... so help me God! :D

restless

will i forever be restless?
i cant seem to stop and be still
i always want something new ... something exciting to keep my adrenaline up
just when i thought that everything seems smooth and great ...
here i am again ... looking for that unexplainable something ....
meeeeen!!! ... these days, i ask myself, what would keep me still and ... ooooohhhh...
the word just slipped my mind 'CONTENTMENT' .. i think i will never be content with
whatever ... i will always be searching for more than just okay ... demn!
it can be tiring ... it can be annoying ... but ... but ... despite my being restless, i have to thank GOD, for all these years of my being restless and my always looking for that "unexplainable something", lifting up all these uncertainties to HIM and just letting HIM lead the way has always led me to the most BLESSED PATHS ...